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Sometimes you have to do things for you…

I am less than 4 days away from a miracle.

Not letting go of the past, but embracing the future.

Tonight, my daughter asked me why my friends would call my ex a bitch.

I tried to explain… then stopped and moved on.

You see in the past I would have shown how wrong Angie was. And I did fall into the trap asking Shelby to ask her mommy where the money that she owed me was.

And that where I made my mistake. 

I fell into the trap of using my kids to communicate with Angela.  And I was wrong and I told Shelby to forget about it and we talked about the next time she would come and see me.

But it got my blood pressure up.  I felt like I had a fever.  I donked off chips at the poker table.  I told Amanda, who had come over to make me dinner, that I was fine when she could clearly see I wasn’t.

So I had to be sat down and told how I was wrong, and I felt bad.

Not because of what my child told me, but of my reaction to it.

I’m so wound up so tight that my “Contents Under Pressure” sign is melting from the heat from my blood pressure.

And that’s why I need to get away.

I need to just get away from the pressures of work. I need to have time to not be me.

Especially not the me I am now. I don’t like me. I’ve become everything I hate about others.

Now, I need to take care of me.

I need to get away to where people can’t find me unless I let them. 

Thus when I leave for Vegas, my phone will be turned off and for family they will be given a In Case of Emergency #.

Everyone else will just have to wait till I come home.

Because this time I WON’T take 8 calls from the office in one day.

I’m hiding for me.

 

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