Preparing for a miracle…

A hogposh of things to talk about tonight from…

Friends heading home…

Friends finding everything but what they need…

Thoughts that have been in my mind, but not available for posting…

My friend Doc Chakko is almost home.  He’s starting the trip back to his home, a slow path of here there and everywhere.  I know Michelle his wife will welcome him back and I’m glad to see him finally get home.  BUT I’ve decided to put together another box of poker cards, magazines etc and send it to his replacement.

I know you are wondering why I would do that?

Just because.

Sometimes its better to be nice to a total stranger than someone you hate

I am still holding my breath until I hear the words “He’s Home” from The Wife and until then I wish him safe travels and my deepest thanks for his service to our country.  May you enjoy your time away from the Army. You DESERVE IT!

I have a friend who is deeply confused on who she is.  She wants to be one thing while staying close to what makes her special. But the problem is, the changes she is considering will destroy what makes her special.  I send up a prayer to the big guy that she will find the answers that she is needing and the hope that she finds the man that will understand her needs.

I went out with my good friend Kerri today to find a suit for Orlando and my trip for my conference on Thursday.  It will be great for me for its in Walt Disney World and I get to see some old friends and new faces.  I get energized every time I go to this conference and it comes at the right time where I am lost in my thoughts and lost in what I want to do in the next 5 years.

I’ve always had a five year plan ready for anything… but lately my five year plan has stagnated.  I just want to find a way to be closer to my kids I think.

I’ve been doing some writing lately. Nothing that I want to post up here. but it’s amazing when I’m not thinking about writing what prose comes from the mind.  When I sit down and try to focus to write, I am unable to put 500 words down on the laptop.

I have friends that make me feel special from around the world, but very few here in Lubbock.  Most of the people I meet, once the find out what I do, expect the “friendship discount”.  But lately I’ve disappointed many people and I just don’t care.  I had an opportunity at the last second to get tickets to George Strait, that would have taken care of one of “those friends” and instead I gave him the West Texas No. I never called him back.

Right now I am lost in my life.  I need to focus on something or someone to help me move on.  Because I find myself just doing the bare minimum to get bu. And that isn’t right.

The time change has screwed up my body clock, the clock at the computer at the office worked fine and there was no tragedy that I had anticipated.  But I find myself staying up because I just can’t sleep.  Maybe its because I’m not with Amanda anymore.  It’s been awhile since we’ve been together but I still miss having a body next to me.

Maybe that’s just wrong, but I need to hold someone.

The kids are less than 2 weeks away from being picked up by me.  I CAN NOT WAIT! I’ve been thinking of things that we can do and go see while they are here.  It’s going to be a GREAT trip I can tell it.  I’m getting that feeling in the pit of my stomach that has me excited beyond belief.  I’m planning games, trips to the museum and I’m thinking of taking a trip to Texas Motor Speedway to show Ryan the track.  At one of the tours they take a van and drive you around the track. I think he would really enjoy it.

I’m going to be meeting Angie and the kids in Vinita Oklahoma at the World’s LARGEST McDonalds.  We’ll stay the night in Vinita and come back to Ft. Worth on my birthday which is on Easter this year, March 23rd. 

We’ll stay in Hurst for a couple days, might make a couple of stops around the Metroplex and head back on the 29th.  It’ll be a sad time for me but I might stop by and see Gcox on the way back.

I had the worst of problems the other day (Thursday) when after cleaning off plates from dinner I started the garbage disposal up and smelt smoke and felt water at my feet.  The damn thing threw something because it was smoking and it had lost its seal with the sink.  So I had a bunch o cleaning to do.  Fortunately I was able to get a replacement as well as a new fawcet for the kitchen which now almost completely finished the kitchen. I’ve replaced EVERYTHING in there but the wallpaper.

I really need to sleep but sleep comes at a premium these days.  I just have to be patient and not only will I get everything I deserve, I’ll get everything I need.

Night