I went into the office to play radio from 8 to 11 then came home to relax and cook the ham Mom got me.

Long Distance Gift Card Exchange is coming up.

I can hardly wait!

So I left the house after my remote today and surprised Mom tonight by driving in to see my parents!

Mom was extremely happy and was mad at my Dad for not telling her that I was coming.

Just a simple overnight trip to surprise her and drop off some vino for X-Mas.

It was great to see her smile.

Driving back tomorrow after lunch. Just a simple hit and stun.  A little Christmas Shock and Awe.

Surprising Mom + A drive to think = Instant Happiness

THIS BLOG ENTRY IS RATED R.  SHELBY DON’T READ THIS!

I just love my life.  Yes, that was saracstic.  If it wasn’t for F-Train‘s trip report that he put up which made me smile for the first time in a week, I’d just be hiding back into my bed.

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Usually I am HORRIBLE to get up in the morning.  I try to wait and wake up at the last possible minute and usually don’t eat breakfast ending up at work seconds from when I need to get at work.

But today , even though I couldn’t sleep and didn’t get to sleep until 2:30, I got up at 7:45 in the morning and had a bowl of cereal.  It was a start, and even though I ate the bowl in the comfort of my electric blanket in my room, it was the beginning of changing some things.

Trying to not let the man get me down and just do what I do well.

Yesterday I cleaned out the garage of stuff and threw out nearly a dumpster full of stuff, moved a pile of clothes to the donate to goodwill stack and did some cleaning.

Next stop is the “Garage Sale of all Garage Sales.”  I’m probably going to give it to a friend who is having a moving / garage sale and take whatever I can get.  If it’s been stuck in my garage and collecting dust I DON’T NEED IT!

I cleaned up my poker game on Sunday and looked at the -EV play that I have made myself do because of the games I play.  Back to Vegas strategy.  Play Tight, Play Aggressive and PLAY THE PLAYER, NOT THE HAND!

Also it’s time to call the Doc and get Mugsy his shots, which will mean listening to him mope around.

My friend Mike Dalby was worried about me Saturday when I couldn’t even smile during our groups Christmas party.  I just couldn’t get into it.  I thought it was more interesting to watch Texas Tech beat OU again on videotape than to really socialize at all.

I was down also because it doesn’t look like I will be able to go home for X-mas.  I hate to disappoint my grandmother , who wants to see me home, but everything is on a wait and see attitude.

Last night I found something in the garage that may have turned the tide of my depression I was in around.  Sometimes a picture can remind you of times when you just didn’t care and when I was truly happy.

Time to get that smile fully back on the face.

Yup, that’s my son.  Missing even more teeth now,

and yet enjoying life since he’s just 6.

Happy Birthday Ryan!

could pull me out of the funk I got today…

Which started at work, which I can’t talk about, BUT IT MAY PROCLUDE ME COMING TO VEGAS!

Then continued at home, with Mom being mad, and rightfully so, that the kids didn’t call her to say thank you for their birthday gifts, Ryan cause he doesn’t want to and Shelby because… I dunno.

Let’s not forget my brother no showing his own birthday party and my sister in law ducking my call when I needed to get my brothers cell # again.

Today was just so horrible that I gave up in cards, gave up smiling, gave up laughing.

Just going to go to bed and hope that when I wake up I give a shit again.

Maybe in 2008.

Actually I am going to call Amanda and see if she can pull me out of this funk.

9 years old… Sheesh,

and Ryan you’re going
to be 6 in just 10 days. 
Happy Birthday Princess!
Happy Birthday Prince Ry Ry!

It’s not what I say, but what others say that has my exed ire.

“You shouldn’t let your friends call me a bitch.”

Defending you stopped October 19th 2002 Angela.

I couldn’t go to sleep this morning until 1:30 and Shelby came and pulled up the small ottoman next to the couch where I was sleeping.

Ryan was going to sleep next to “Mommy, cause I love her more.”

I could understand that since Angie babies him.

But 5:30 this morning came way to early.

I got the kids and Angie to the airport and then after small tragedy of Shelby and Ryan sitting in a complete different row then Angie averted by Shelby volunteering to sit by herself I went to the office to get some work done.  I took care of some work that I had been bored with (fixing a couple of computers that had been acting up) and then was off to Texas Tech.

Chris Cook had asked me to do him a favor and announce a High School Football game for him at Jones AT&T Stadium and I complied.

It was kinda neat to hear my voice bellowing where Texas Tech played.  During the first announcement that I made I got a text message from my friend Laura asking “Is that you doing the commentary at the Jones?”  I was in the camera level where they don’t believe in heat.  I had a small heater at my feet to keep me warm, the game however was extremely cold, not because of the 32 degrees but because Abiliene High put a spanking on El Paso Coronado.  Interesting thing is El Paso must have been without their regular kicker because they missed ALL 3 of their extra point attempts.

I came home, mentally and physically drained from the kids leaving when I called my mom to let her know I was ok and heading home to crash.

I finally realized that I, in my extreme care of taking care of the kids, had forgotten my mom’s birthday which was yesterday!

I called her back to apologize and she accepted knowing that I had a lot on my mind.

I crashed out on the bed from 5P to 10P and then woke up realizing that I should have tried to stay awake.

So I am now up, reading email and avoiding looking in the kids bedroom to see what cleaning I have to do.

It was a great visit. I just wish it was longer.