Clarity is my friend right now. I do what I need to do right this second and I move on from there. Recently I made unhappy decisions for my family. But they had to be done. It is better to do what is unpopular and yet right than it is to do what is popular but will cause misery down the line. I’ve made the popular decisions in the past and I continue to pay for them. I say no when I mean no and sometimes even say I’ll try when I know the answer will be no. The easy yes is NEVER easy. There are always conditions, never an easy path. There is never a free lunch. I watched as people I have trusted blindside me as they have been blindsided by people that they have trusted.
I barely trust anyone. It’s sad that I don’t but trust is earned and I have watched people betray trust.
I have allowed more people to touch and enter my life. I have been enriched by their touch and I have been blessed by hopefully touching their lives poisitively.
I can’t allow myself to be negative. I allow myself to be realistic and not pessimistic.
My back isn’t great, and it will be better, maybe not as good as it was before the accident, but I am looking forward to the day that I get to pick up my son and daughter once again with all three of us crying with joy.
The day is coming and I leave it all in God’s hands. That’s all I can do.
We are so fortunate and friends like Shawn Sparks have gone and made a difference in Haiti.
I can only hope that when you come to that key fork in the road…
That you take it.
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My lawn looks like a green and yellow patch of well, you know.
I’ve been weeding my life lately. I’m someone that doesn’t let go of things easily. Recently I’ve been lucky to start letting things in my life , well just go like a dandelion in the wind.
Now in the past I’d be letting all the wonderful dandelions begat more dandelions, but it just isn’t happening now.
I’ve got too much to do and too much to see.
So I started today by paring down the Facebook friends list. Am I really friends with 500 people? No. I started by weeding that down to under 300. It may be weeded again soon.
If you didn’t talk to me in the past, or you added me because of some friend of a friend you probably didn’t see the notification of your weeding on FB.
You were just gone.
I’ve taken 2 truck loads of stuff over for a garage sale this weekend at my friend Kerri’s house.
What happens if they don’t get sold? The stuff gets donated to a prison ministry.
I don’t need stuff. I have stuff, lots of stuff.
But in reality, all the stuff is are weeds.
They don’t have deep roots, they can be eliminated with proper care , and in the end don’t have meaning for me.
The stuff that has emotional meaning is put up where it needs to be. The rest just found its way to places that aren’t my garage.
My heart isn’t into keeping things that don’t have meaning anymore.
And I’ve been making changes at home, work and everywhere.
Maybe when I’m finished weeding I’ll see the green grass. The big lawn picture that I need to see.
Or maybe, I’ll just have to start weeding again.
Categories: Misc, My thoughts Tags: Life, My thoughts
I know in my heart of hearts that it shouldn't limit his RSS and won't now for you RSS Readers (Astin, Wawfuls etc). But I need people to visit the site and comment there, not just on Twitter or Facebook. Well at least until Wawfuls helps me with the blog intergration. Other things that I know: * No matter how hard I try, the garage door will have to be looked at after the first of the year. The stopping in the middle of the way up is annoying as hell! * Big Win for the Red Raiders last night versus Washington. But it means NOTHING unless you follow it up with a win versus TCU on Tuesday. Winning at home is expected. Winning on the road is where you make your RPI look good for the NCAA's.
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I've played games, tried playing poker, tried writing other stuff, but I'm not sure what I needed to do, so I hid. It's what I do and Mitchell and my other friends know that I shut down when I don't know the answer. And that has hurt my friends and family. They were worried, and in a dream I had last night, I was brought to a writing intervention.
Categories: Instant Sean, My thoughts, SYCMU, What's on my mind Tags: Family, Friends, Home, Inspiration
Some of you may be asked to help me with a special project.
It’s about cheering up a friend of mine going through a tough time.
Be prepared.
Tonight I actually played some poker. See http://www.instanttragedy.com for all the details and dirt.
I’m finding that it is harder and harder to find people that understand what I do in my career. Recently I was asked if I would consider moving to Montana if there was a radio gig there. It’s not the daypart that I work that’s important, but the people I work with.
Thus, it would have to be an opportunity to do something amazing or something that would get me closer to Indiana so I could see the kids more often.
I laughed today as Jo came in and actually took a nap while I made dinner. She’s not used to working 8 hours a day. Silly student. I think that once she gets into the swing of things that she is going to love this job. There is still a possibilty of a better gig opening up for her. I wish her nothing but the best.
She brought up today that I don’t have pictures up on here or on facebook of me and her.
Simple reason, I’m normally the one behind the camera.
Today, I went out and bought a whole bunch of stuff that I’ve been needing at the store but haven’t had the time nor the money for. It just had to be done. In Joanna’s mind next stop, new pants and shoes. Hold your horses little missy.
I’ve finally caught up reading the 2100 posts that were stuck in bloglines today. I kinda missed reading my friends and have been so caught up with my projects at work and home that I haven’t had time to read, play or do anything fun.
That changed tonight. If I don’t make the changes that allow me to enjoy some time, I’ll end up miserable. But as for now, I am excited and pumped.
Good things are coming my way!
Categories: Instant Sean, Life, My thoughts, Work Tags: Joanna, Life, Love
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