I have stories to tell and I will work on them. The book has been keeping me busy. Thanks to my bitchslapper, I mean editors who have been making me rewrite again and again.
As yet another day starts in the Hill Country I sat on the porch watching the mist start to come over the trees to the east. The smells of coffee and cholesterol wafted in from the kitchen.
“You want any,” my wife asked?
“Nah, I’m plenty good enough just watching the dogs run chasing the shadows in the forest.”
“I’m starting to burn the bacon,” she said as she closed the window to keep the burning smell inside.
(Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppp) sounded the smoke alarm as I walked into the house into a smoke filled kitchen.
“You need help dear?”
“Nah, just trying to make it crispy.”
“There’s a shock. You think the smoke alarm is going to wake the neighbors?”
“Nah, they are along the banks fishing this morning.”
“Happy Mother’s Day darling”
“Yup, it’s Mother’s Day”
The door started to get scratched up and I wandered over, taking a sip of my coffee as I opened the door to let the two most ferocious dauschounds who barked and whined until I reached down and petted them.
“Don’t be given them any treats,” my wife said as I was reaching them down to hand them both a piece of bacon.
“I’ve got no idea what you are talking about,” as one of the dogs trotted by with a piece of meat in his mouth.
Her glare spoke volumes and I just reached down to open the paper trying to find people I didn’t like in the obituaries. Seeing none and not caring about the sports scores, I closed it and headed outside to enjoy yet another peaceful day before it got hot.
Nothing worse, than heat and humidity in the Hill Country.
I should call mom and tell her Happy Mother’s Day.
I think she knows…
Happy Mother’s Day Mom I thought as I relax on the porch until the sun goes down.
I’ve always been good charging into battle. At work I’m known to act first and worry about the consequences later. It’s a strength and also a weakness. Sometimes it is better for me to be patient and I’ve added some limited patience to my repertoire. But I’ve tried to conquer something that maybe it isn’t meant to be conquered…
When I was in New York , my mom called me from Cleveland and asked me about some rude guy from a comic shop who was asking for his Strat-o-matic baseball cards back so he could complete his collection.
I told her that he was a jerk but if she could find them, she could give them back to him.
I told her where I thought they were and she returned sheepishly later telling me that she had thrown that box away since she thought it was junk.
I’ve made bad choices, been too impulsive, lied to myself to make me feel that I wasn’t getting used.
But sometimes the only way that life can move on if you chip through the frozen cube that you have been given.
There are places when you have to make choices that you don’t like.
But in the end, I’ve made my bed and now I have to lay in it.
Thank goodness I have the love of my wife, family and special friends.
For those of you who don’t understand it’s because I can’t say what I need to say. I don’t have the release that I used to.
I’ve been trapped in a frozen world of my own choosing.
And I have to find the ice pick and start chipping.
The people who had proven not to be my friends have been weeded from my life.
And the best part of it, I really don’t miss them.
The migraine that I’ve suffered all day with hasn’t gone away yet.
And I don’t anticipate it going away until the stress I’ve been under goes away.
But tonight I had a great time watching TV, holding my wife, and attempting to find a way through the ice.
My prayers are still with my friends ,the Schoonvelt family, and my great friend Kerri. Keep smiling my dear, everything will work out in the end.
My wife has been so wonderful these last couple of days and I am the luckiest man alive to have her in my life. Joanna, you make me smile, even when it hurts. I love you!
I’m going to try and play some live poker on Wednesday because what’s been going on online is not poker, just a game of outdraw.
Family Update:
Mom & Dad are back home from their cruise and I’m glad to have them back onshore.
The kids are great and I can’t wait to see how they have changed when I get to see them soon.
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