Lets not do a travel report cause 28 hours on the road to and from Lubbock and to and from Texarkana and Little Rock was enough to give me car lag…

Here are my Top 5 Canadians

# 5.  Talented and beautiful, one day will let me post her mug on here.  She’s been down to Okie Vegas and is one of the NOTORIOUS Canadian Butt Grabbing Chicks…

Katitude

#4.  Natasha Henstridge – Not only hot for some of her worse work, like She Spies, but some of her best work, like her current role as Taylor on the ABC Hit Eli Stone.

#3. Tom Cavanagh – The Creator of the $10 bet! Now also on Eli Stone.

#2.Howie Mandel – Everyone’s favorite OCD comedian.  Look Howie, I give ya the pound, but please just one day, give a freaking high FIVE PLEASE!

#1. Shania Twain – I’m still amazed that when she called me on the hotline at my job early for a scheduled interview I was able to get out Sha nuh nuh out rather than to just drool and grunt.

Blogger Top 5+- (In no particular order to avoid hurting blogger feelings)

Pirate Lawyer

Schaubs

Astin (Bumped out of the EH Top 5 by Natasha)

Joanne

Fuel

Bam Bam

Now I challenge those on the Blogger Top 5+ (and YOU Kat) to name your Top 5 Americans and Top 5 American Bloggers.

That is all

But I thank you for each of your kind words, your sweet im’s and your friendship.

No news from New York as they still have my uncle in a medically induced coma.

Dad is going to have a colonoscopy among other oscopies.

If I have news, I’ll pass it on here.

Note to Kerri.  Stop worrying,. I’ll be reasonably ok.

BTW I won two tokens tonight fooling around.. Now I have to figure out what to do with them.

Luv ya, mean it.

If I knew how using MT 4.0 could set up a password protected area where I could talk about work I would.  But I don’t know how.  Somedays I wish I did.

As for your Canadian Politics, sometimes the funniest things to watch is CBC Coverage of the Canadian Elections.  You guys are truly messed up!  It was a joke, I have a candidate (one of the majors) that I will vote for, but it is more fun to mess with people and make them try to figure out whom I’m voting for.  Cause I believe in getting drug dealers hooked on their own stuff, get them dt’ing and start over again, cruel maybe, punishment definitely.  But I also believe in a woman’s right to choose.  I believe that hunters should be able to bear arms, but not AK-47′s.  I believe that we should give a job to anyone who wants one and bring back the WPA, among other agencies and rebuild this country.  I believe that organized labor is what has made this country great but then again I don’t believe that they deserve everything they negotiate for in their contracts.

I believe that government BY the People, and not the lobbyists should rule this earth but know that it’s actually the opposite.  I think the DH should be abolished, the Black Sox and Pete Rose should be put into the Hall of Shame portion of the Hall of Fame.  I believe that we should shorten the regular season, give LESS playoff opportunities (HINT HINT NHL and NBA) and that I shouldn’t have to buy cable to watch “Monday Night Football”

I believe in giving people second chances and love but believe that my one chance for true love has gone.

I believe in hard work, clean living, and charity.

I believe in people doing things so I don’t have to (Thanks Doc Chako!)

I believe in my family, my friends and the Big Guy.

But I don’t believe in drinking and driving, addiction, cruelty, hate and rap music.

I am starting to believe in myself and I believe in you.

Thanks

I’ve hadn’t played cards much since the infamous “Aww What the hell tournament” last Sunday.  I’ve been avoiding the BBToo events, not because I can’t handle the amount of donkery that are in them, but it’s not the correct fergesoneqsue play I need to make.  I need to play the $2 SNG’s until I have $100 over my initial $30 “love gift”.  Then move up to $5 sng’s until I’m to $250.  It’s a bastardized way of the Fergeson, but my target is 50 big bets before I move up.  If I am ever below 35 big bets, I move back down.  Play my game and get prepared for the big tourney.

As for relationships, I find myself asking for them , then not knowing what to do when I get them.

Maybe the loser is not in any of my exes but in me.

A good friend of mine told me that I needed to have my self esteem kicked in the ass.  I think I am a good person, but self doubt trickles in.  I hate the holidays that I don’t have my kids but another friend (one of the Boob Patrol at the Jewelry store) told me that I needed to “Go Overboard” in the times that I don’t have the kids to embrace everything that in the past I would have just thrown away.

So I started with the living room and I have been making small changes to my enviornment.  Maybe if I start to take care of me first maybe something will change and improve.

I forgot that I don’t have the X-Mas tree up yet, usually when I have the kids for the holidays I have the mini X-Mas tree up so I can put presents underneath there for the kids.  SO that will be one of the things that I have to get done when I get home tonight.

My stomach is in a knot.  I haven’t seen the kids since May and I am so scared to see how much in six months that they have changed.  I’m just very glad that I get to spend a week with them but it scares me to see what changes emotionally. mentally, and physically.that have happened.

Fear.

I try to survive it, yet it sneaks back into my way of life.

My friend Astin commented yesterday that the phrase “It’s only 382 miles to Lubbock” would sound good as a song title.  But to make it a country song , you have to add, “but she’s just a smile from my heart”.

Will check back in later if I feel like it…