I’ve lost the ability to speak. Not figuratively, but emotionally, mentally. I’m looking to make changes but spinning my wheels. So I took a 3 day weekend off of Facebook and I gleaned some clarity.
I’m not writing enough, I’m not challenging others as I should be challenging me.
I let everyone in, but I don’t have the freedom to say what I need to say. I don’t offend people and I try to be everyone’s friend.
How does that work out for me?
I’ve got things to do and I may tick people off.
But I have to do them for me.
It isn’t easy to say you care about people, but it is much different when you have to do what you speak, if you don’t believe it.
People like me. I’m intense, I get the job done and I may ruffle feathers, but I care about the final outcome.
If you need my help, ask me and I will be there. But you better damn well be there for me,or I’ll never help you ever again.
A former intern came to me asking for a recommendation. She asked for me to put my name, heart, and soul backing her for a position.
She falsified documents and I was no wiser to it until a background check brought it up.
I could have kept quiet, let her move on with her life.
Part of me feels terrible about my impact on her current job situation.
Most of me doesn’t give a shit. She lied, tried to get me to back her up.
My name is all I have and I refuse to let it be tarnished.
I’ve made plenty of mistakes in my life. This was hers. She lied, I called her out on it and she is now unemployed.
I destroyed her life, some of you may say. No, I didn’t. She did when she lied to me, lied to her teachers, lied to her employers and lies to this day.
I have no sympathy for her.
So while I have been struggling with sleeplessness I discovered that my voice is gone. I don’t have what I used to.
It’s my own damn fault.
I was trained wrongly and by unethical people but the responsibility to accept their teaching was my own.
Now that I know differently, I have to make changes that I KNOW will make a difference and make up for those mistakes that I have made.
Perfect am I? Hell no.
But perfectly satisfied to be better in whatever I choose to do.
That’s on me.
I almost gave up on one kid when it is my responsibility to kick him in the ass. So the asskicking starts this morning.
I’m going to continue to shuffle paper, but try and improve who I am and what I do daily.
I’m going to try and be a better man for my wife and kids.
I’m going to walk into my office with the same pride and joy that I do everyday, but find ways to do the things I love better.
I’m going to try and write more, do things with friends and visit my kids in Indiana.
It’s not going to be easy.
But when has life made it easy for any of us.
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I am an encourager. I spend my time and energies trying to be positive, sending good vibes out into the world. I will tease but never intentionally be negative because negative words never encourage nor ever achieve the goal that were intended by them.
This weekend I had two people that I know,try to convince someone that the actions he was taking was sinful but failed. They were negative toward him and spoke words that I and some people would consider hate speech. But it wasn’t I was told because they were “leading him to the light”.
“Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.” – Ephesians 4:19 NIV
Why were the people I know failures in their attempt to change one persons pattern “leading him to the light”?
Because you can’t lead by just words! You have to lead by actions. You have to realize that it is up to the person to WANT TO CHANGE. You calling them names, will not change them. You can’t make a person stop drinking if they don’t make the first move themselves. You can’t change a person who lies to you straight to your face.
THEY HAVE TO WANT TO CHANGE!!
You also can’t make someone change if you tear them down without building them back up. I know a bunch of people who would rather beat me down, than lift me up.
So the next time you want to tear someone down, come to me first. I have a LOT of faults and I will admit them all.
I will defend my brothers and sisters in the world. I may never be rich, but the love, support and HUMANITY that I HAVE will make me the richest man alive.
Who wants to take the first shot?
Didn’t think so.
Each and every one of us knows someone who struggles daily with addiction. But what do we do? Do we give them support or do we walk on? We don't look in the mirror. For if we did, we would find an addict looking back at ourselves. Maybe continued involvement with a substance or activity despite the negative consequences associated with it. Maybe we spend too much time on Facebook , than in front of someone we love. Maybe we spend too much money at the bar, but we "don't have a problem." Maybe it's just a matter of wanting to sit in front of the TV so we don't have to face our life because it sucks so bad.
Red Raider coaches in their first 2 years: Coach A : 14-11 with 7 conference wins. 2 bowl appearances, 2 bowl losses. 0-4 vs. Texas and Texas A&M Coach B: 13-12 with 6 conference wins , 1 bowl appearance , 1 bowl win. 0-4 vs. Texas and Texas A&M Coach C: 11-10-1 with 6 conference wins and no bowl appearances. 2-2 vs. Texas and Texas A&M These are the facts. They can not be denied. It is a matter of what happens in their 3rd year.
Canada will have to win 4 games in 4 days to win the Gold.
U.S.A. will have to win 3 games in 4 days to win the Gold.
Canada starts with Germany in a 6-11 match up.
USA will either play the winner of Slovakia / Belarus or a Swiss / Norway depending on the Finland / Sweden game. Because of the 5-3 victory against Canada the US needs a Sweden victory or a Finland victory in overtime to gain the # 1 seed. I’d rather see them play as the 2 seed and let Finland play the Slovakia / Belarus winner. We’ve won against Swiss / Norway, and I’d rather play Norway.
Tonight’s game was a tale of 5 sections.
Section 1 : Quick US Score followed by Canada equalizer then the lead back for the US.
The US in the first period used counter attacking to a T and whenever Marty Brodeur decided to get away from the crease, he was punished with shots and two goals.
Section 2: Canada attacking with organized attacks as the US fell into the trap of defending a lead. They gave up the equalizer and so many times Canada had open looks and Ryan Miller shut them down.
Section 3: The key of the game was here… ACTUALLY scoring on a Power Play. The US can’t let the man advantage go away with bad passing and barely any shots with a man advantage. Canada played inspired until the last PP.
Section 4: The Brick Wall of Miller. You can’t see the Miller Time logo on the back of his helmet but Ryan was IMPRESSIVE! The Buffalo Sabre goalkeeper was everywhere in the crease and made several incredible stick and glove saves. At any time Canada COULD HAVE tied it up, but every time they had a chance, Ryan just got enough of the puck to send it somewhere else. By using the Brick Wall of Miller the US had enough counter attacking to change the tempo and momentum of the game.
Section 5: Empty Netter and celebration. Laying down to score a 5th goal may have seemed without value but that 5th goal could be the difference in seeding for the US team. Now they sit back and get to ice down those injuries.
For the entire game I kept trying to explain penalties and players to Joanna. All she wanted to talk about was pretty boy Sydney Crosby, and with the exception of the one goal was a non entity in the game.
My three stars:
3. Chris Drury Goal and overall attitude!
2. Ryan Miller 42 saves Nuff said.
1. Brian Rafalski 36 year old grandpa of the US team with 2 goals.
In other Olympic news, the US Curling team still sucks. My favorite goat still found a way to blame everyone else but HIMSELF! He even had the gall to challenge Brian Smith to make a tough shot and bet him $20 if he couldn’t make it.
Win consistently and then have fun with the side bets GOAT!
But then , that’s my opinion and I’m still waiting for the Goat fanclub to show up and tell me what kind of great guy he is.
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