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Sean D – Page 23 – Instant Sean

Author: Sean D

  • To those in the hole…

    I know times are tough, but as long as you have familty that loves you and good friends, nothing else matters.

    Be tough and remember that the only thing that hold you back is you yourself.

    I learned that yesterday.  I’ve alwyas thought of myself as a small cog, something that can be replaced with any other cog and the motor will work the same.

    But yesterday, I was told how important I was in my field and it felt good.  There is very very few people in the multiple groups of my field that does what I do. I’m the ultimate specialist. And its good to know I’ll be able to find work because of my abilities whenever in the future my time here is over.

    But to my friends who I know are sturggling in this economy, have hope.  I’m saying multiple prayers for you and negotiating with the Big Guy. Maybe your perfect gig is just around the corner.  Have faith!

  • Spilling Tears

    Spilling Poetry was actually born from the ashes of Bone Flower Elegy, another popular local band around the Lubbock music scene. When the bass player for Bone Flower Elegy quit in early 1994, the remaining members — Brian Enderson (vocals, guitar), Lynn Holdridge (drums), and Jamie Sanders (guitar) — joined up with Ryan Muff (bass) and changed their name to Spilling Poetry. The new band quickly set about playing around town and soon recorded their debut album, Invisible, which came out later in the spring of 1994. While Invisible went on to sell out the initial 1,000 copies the band had made, they continued to play regionally and build themselves a strong following over the next two years. By the mid-’90s, Spilling Poetry had become known as the band to see in West Texas and were widely heralded as the ones most likely to break into the big time…Luckily, though the band may have called it quits and their first two releases — Invisible and Microphonic  — have gone out of print, all Spilling Poetry’s previous music is still available on their website in one form or another, and the band has continued to release new songs off their unfinished last album from time to time – Matthias Sheaks, All Music Guide

    I actually have a couple copies of Invisible… and I never got a copy of Microphonic.

    But I was part of the band.  I was the manager.  I managed them for a year and a half and each moment was a joy.  We split apart, them heading to the future and me heading to the radio career that I still have today.  While the band broke up in 2001 and underwent many changes, I know the four original members.

    Brian was the brooding artist.  Lynn was the quiet storm, Ryan was the thinker and Jamie, oh Jamie was my friend.

    When the band changed and Jamie and I were out, we formed a talent agency that went nowhere due to the disintegration of the Lubbock music scene. The clubs started to close and the talent all went to Dallas and Austin following their dream.

    Jamie and I spent many an evening after the band finished practicing just talking about my frustrations, his get rich quick schemes and relationships , his with Amy and mine with Angie.  There was something nice, sitting in the office of the warehouse as he smoked and we chatted, sometimes until 3 in the morning. It was peaceful, sometimes sitting there watching the cars pass and wonder if we were going to get mugged.  I miss those moments we had together.

    I had let him leave to do what he thought was best, moving to Dallas so he could be closer to his ex and his daughter.  I didn’t push when he came in town to meet, but it was on both of our minds.  We needed that chance to blow off steam.  I knew he had flaked out on having lunch when he came in town a couple of times, but hell I had to cancel a couple meetings too.

    We knew that we would eventually catch up with each other and reminisce about J. Gilligans in Arlington or the time we were offered crack at the bar in Amarillo.  We had a million stories and we loved telling ’em again and again.

    I even talked about it in a post April 1st 2007:

    Jamie Sanders – Ex guitar player for Spilling Poetry, the band I managed when I first moved to Lubbock. Had heard he had gotten divorced and was looking forward to catching up with him, but he disappearred.

    And in 2008:

    Craig Wharton,
    Spilling Poetry,
    Jamie Sanders,
    Friends I can talk to for hours to on the phone,
    Randy Bush,
    Mitchell Ivey,and all the moments that I wish I had cherished instead of throwing them away

    I’m still thinking of the band gathering before each concert, interlocking their hands and praying coming out with my favorites.

    Red ,  Fry and  The All Down Hill

    Angie’s Favorite: Stealing Flowers

    And in June of 08  I talked with him.  He wasn’t much into talking, just wanted to let me know that he was ok and that we would get together.

    But I won’t have that opportunity to catch up anymore. You see Jamie had his own demons and he fought them until Tuesday evening when he passed. I can’t tell you how or why, cause I don’t know the facts just third person knowledge.

    He was like my younger brother… and he is now gone.

    I found out Thursday afternoon and my heart sank.

    I did my show in a trance today and dreaded each tick of the clock as it got closer to the viewing.

    I went in, saw Brian, Tiffany, Amy and then I walked a path that I dreaded.

    And I saw the coffin. I saw him as he last walked the earth.

    But as I walked away, I remembered the Jamie I knew.  I remembered the moments we had and I cried.

    Vaya Con Dios Mi Amigo.  We will have that lunch someday. I’ll pick up the check.

  • In a world where everything is perfect…

    John was a hearty boy.  He filled out his bib overalls and had a little top over the sides.  He loved to eat.  Every morning , before the sun would rise, John would start with a stack of flapjacks, three eggs, a pound of bacon, a plate of hash browns and a bowl of grits.

    Which would satisfy him till noon.

    As he normally got finished with his chores he headed into town for his second breakfast at the Cracked Egg Diner.

    As he walked in the door the cry went out.

    “Maurice, kill a whole pig, lathering em up with sauce and kill 6 baby chickens while you’re at it.”

    “Hello Doreen,” he would reply to the woman of his dreams as he sat at the counter.

    She would look back at him with her red hair, bloodshot eyes and a body that ten years ago won her beauty pagents.  Now, she was divorced, squirting out two kids that she worked two jobs to support.

    “Hello, John anything but the usual?”

    “No Mamm not at all,” he said as she brought forth two glasses of whole milk.  He downed one while glaring down her dress.  The “uniform” was not really uniform and no matter how many times she washed that red and white tablecloth looking dress, she could never get the stains out.

    “So how’s the crop looking this year” she said while making small talk?

    “Well daddy says as long as we gets the rain we need without the hail we’ll be smiling at the end of the year.  But as long as that damned run for the hills Ron don’t be calling up no ‘naders.”

    ‘Amen to that,’  a couple of men around the bar echoed. ‘We don’t need no hail or ‘naders.

    As Doreen went back into the kitchen to pick up some orders a couple of the old men sipping coffee at the front of the diner looked around and then motioned to John.

    “When are you going to ask her out John?”

    John blushed crimson and put his head down where his third chin hit his chest. He said nothing.

    Doreen walked through the doors from the kitchen bringing the pound of bacon and six eggs with gravy on top.

    “You eat up hearty son,” she said as she slid another glass of milk in front of him.

    “Yes M’amm I will,” John said as he started shovelling down the food.

    “And you two busybodies, get back to drinking your coffee.  Mind your own beeswax,” Doreen said as she started cleaning the counter that was clean only minutes ago.

    As she started to wipe the counter down in a circular path John’s eye glanced at hers for a moment.  A small smile crept out of the right side of her mouth.

    He looked at her as her lean over the counter was more deliberate, more sensual.  He was given a glimpse of what the Lord had given her

    And John started to turn red and he collapsed to the floor.

    Doreen screamed and Blake came out of the back starting CPR.  Doreen kept screaming as the ambulance came up and followed with John in the vehicle.

    What happens next, you’ll never believe…

  • You want what I’ve been working on…

    and when I have a sec I’ll get it on here.

    But I’m going to leave you with a note from one of my good friends

    advice quotes from me that you should already know
    1) The fun never starts ’till we get there
    2) Living is ten times more important than anything else you’ll ever experience
    3) Don’t ever be a “people” when you can be a person
    In a moment where I need to be grounded, one of my friends just HAPPENS to get online and give me those gems.
    I can rest easy now.
  • The Information that I thought I did but you all asked to know…

    I’m not putting the rules up here because I’m not going to torture anyone else.

    1. I’ve started writing 4 books, two of which are over 100K words. The other two are under 20K and are “Marinating”

    2. I have a high pain threshold but low tolerance to drugs. Yup, half a pill and I’m loopy.

    3. I won’t go to the hospital unless I am forced. Case in point Kerri and a friend dragging me when I had an 105 degree fever and when Joanna kept me from bleeding to death.

    4. Last two times I was at the hospital, I had to have 18 tumors removed, 54 staples and the time before that I had an inch long 1/4″ gash that had to have stitches.

    5. I love procrastinating and yet love deadlines. Ironic huh?

    6. I have my dream job in Radio, but at one time I was a licensed UNARMED private investigator.

    7. Last 6 CD’s I’ve listened to Bee Gees – #1’s, Sultans of Swing; The Very best of Dire Straits, Russ Hewitt – Bajo El Sol, Led Zeppelin- Led Zeppelin, Steven Wright- I have a pony and Red Dirt Blues – Jeff Strahan

    8. I love ducks. First dream I ever had involved a duck on my head, a couple years later I was the Ugly Duckling in a school play (at this time I didn’t like ducks at all), I won both my first live and online poker tournament with pocket 2’s (Ducks) and my kids are my little ducks.

    9. I had feathered hair in high school, now I have a one blade to hide the grey.

    10. The sound I will never get out of my head will be the sound of my one month old daughter Shelby screaming in the hospital as she was given a spinal tap.

    11. I love IcolonialI Facial and shaving balm, but noone in Lubbock carries it.

    12. The last thing I do before I go to sleep every night is say a prayer for my kids Shelby and Ryan that they learn, love and live every day and that I might be on this earth one more day to guide them.

    13. I have a ’67 Ford Mustang sitting in my garage. It is in pieces and one day I will get the time and money to finish renovating it.

    14. I’ve introduced on stage Charlie Daniels, Marshall Tucker, Styx, Reo Speedwagon, Bryan White, Foghat, and too many more to remember. But the artist that made me smile was Mila Mason. Maybe another Ovary Act Mila.

    15. While my family played soccer, I coached soccer and was a referee and linesman.

    16. I’ve lost my sister, Tara and brother, Patrick and there isn’t a day I don’t think about them.

    17. I’ve lived in New York, Cleveland, Ohio and Texas… but I’ve never visited the Statue of Liberty, the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame or Padre Island.

    18. With the exception of trips to St. Croix and Hawaii, I’ve never left the contiguous 48 and have never had a passport until this year.

    19. I’ve only truly loved three women in my life.

    20. I hate my picture being taken but love taking pictures of others, before my latest hospital snafu, I was saving up for a Canon Xsi.

    21. I’m competitive and I’ve examined the grey between black and white.

    22. I’ve never been arrested but have 6 speeding tickets. (Yes, I’m a goody two-shoes)

    23. I once had a 27 year old virgin attempt phone sex with me on my answering machine. Whenever I am down, I play it, knowing I can never be as bad as her.

    24. I love the colors Red, Black and Blue

    25. I have a sarcastic sense of humor and I will do whatever it takes to go to the line between comfortable and uncomfortable just to see how people react.

    26. I hate change. (I know it’s supposed to be 25, but just in case someone wanted a BONUS reason)

    If you haven’t been tagged, BOOOOOOOOOM Now you are.

    Yes, I’m good with a portion of evil.