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Family – Page 2 – Instant Sean

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  • “Why yes Keegan, didn’t you know? All dogs…

    “Why yes Keegan, didn’t you know? All dogs…

    When I was young, I was taught about heaven & hell. The nuns took their rulers to my knuckles many times during my formative years. But one day I asked, because I was bored and did not want to talk about the seven deadly sins, “If there a heaven for you and me, is there one for my dog or will he be in his own heaven?”

    This question then turned into a fight with the cat owners telling the dog owners that all of their animals were going to hell while their animals were going to heaven.

    After a large discussion and two raps on the knuckle for speaking out of turn, which wasn’t really new to me, the sister declared that it was up to us whether our animals went to heaven. Then she declared recess. I really think she did not want me to talk again as she pointed the ruler at me and I put my head down on my desk.

    So many times in my life I have thought what it would be like for there to be a heaven for dogs. As my dog Keegan laid down tonight I had in my mind a conversation with him as we stared at each other.

    “Is the grass green?” he asked.

    “Why yes, everywhere you go the grass is green. It’s thick, like a warm set of arms that cuddle you in the night. There are no ants, pests of any kind in this grass, not even a dandelion,” I replied.

    “What about the sun?”

    “It shines warm and bright like a spring day, not too hot or too short, just perfect to catch a nap.”

    “Are there toys to play with?”

    “You can’t turn your head without seeing at least one ball, stuffed animal or fire hydrant. As far as the eye can see you can try a toy. When you tire of it, there will be a new one just around the corner.”

    “And the squeakers?”

    “Oh, when you think you have squeaked the last squeak out of a toy it comes back like new.”

    “What happens at night?”

    “You snuggle up with loved ones and wait for the day when the door opens and your master comes home.”

    “Is this heaven?”

    “Why yes Keegan, didn’t you know? All dogs go to heaven!”

    Keegan Patrick passed away this morning surrounded by family who loved him.

  • Dear Lubbock Area Vet,

    Dear Lubbock Area Vet,

    God knows how I miss Dr. J even more today. Everyone in Lubbock with a pet knew the legend of Dr J. But she is gone and I had to move to another vet. This afternoon Keegan started to bleed and we took him to the vet after Joanna all morning had called to try to talk to the vet. His first words wasn’t, “Lets fix Keegan,” or “What would you like to do?” but “Let’s me first talk about communicati…”

    I shut down and walked out of the room and composed this letter.

    Dear Anonymous Lubbock Area Vet,

    Before you start to criticize my wife for calling you three times because she worries about our family member, I would appreciate if you would check the patient first.

    Bleeding, as you told her later, “traditionally isn’t normal in a back injury” of a dachshund.

    You aren’t Dr. House and I would rather burn money right in front of you than hand it over to you.

    He isn’t just a dog. He isn’t just an animal. He is my family member and since you don’t treat him as such there will be consequences.

    When this adventure is over I will be looking elsewhere for my family care. Because you may consider him your cash cow, but he is my son. He is my kids protector and my wife’s live heating blanket.

    I left the room this morning not because of the tough truths that you were telling my weeping wife, but in the total lack of empathy you showed her. You treated my family as you do any other wallet that you can reach in and grab every dollar that you can see. My wife knew if I stayed in the room, I would have not only yelled right back at you but posted your name, address, phone number and Facebook page for the world to see.

    I pray for your healing hands to help Keegan and resist the urge to take advantage of my wife as she wept.

    I am a nice man, and I will chew on my tongue.

    For now.

  • Always learning from Dad

    Always learning from Dad

    So my dad is always teaching, trying to impart knowledge and his experiences on me and my brothers & sisters. After yesterday’s Nebraska Football victory I could tell he had an extra jump in his step.

    “Today’s been a GREAT week. It started with UT losing (my brother in law went to UT), Tech winning, (I went to Tech) , A&M won (My sisters went to A&M) and Nebraska winning (My dad, mom and brother all went to UNL). Just a great week,” my dad started.

    I asked him what about the concept of rooting for the teams in your conference to win, like Baylor and OU.

    “The hell with them, when was the last time you heard a Baylor or OU fan root for Tech? I’ve gotta go take down the animals for your mother. I love you, talk to you later,” my dad finished.

    Every day I appreciate my dad a little more.

  • Choosing a destination

    Choosing a destination

     

     

     

     

    Railway

    After years of unhappiness and desperation I finally had to do it.  I wouldn’t have told her this years before, not even when we were dating, but it came to the time in my life where I couldn’t deny it anymore.

    Sometimes I would just go round and round, waiting for the right time to distract her from the story that she had been telling me about her work or the trip to New York that she was taking when it would happen. She would realize where we were and immediately tell me what I knew all along.

    “Do you know where the hell you are?”

    My normal response was, “I was just enjoying talking to you, and we really didn’t have a set plan so I thought we’d take a drive.”

    Most days, she would nod her head and immediately went back to her story and I would go back to just driving.

    But today she wasn’t having it.

    “Pull over,” and as I did the interrogation began, “What’s wrong?”

    “I’ve been all over this map and I think I’ve seen everything I want to see on this map.”

    Her response was enlightening, “Get a new map.”

    So I did.

    I went out searching for new challenges, goals and expectations.

    But the more I tried to find them, the more I realized that those challenges, goals and expectations were on the same damn map I had just been circling around before.

    I’m the king of telling people to change their perspective but I was the worst physician of all. I had to do something rash, drastic.

    But I hate change.

    So I started by 2 years ago by starting a twitter account for a hobby of mine. I dedicated time to this hobby and today I have MANY times the amount of followers that my real account had.  But this new account was focused on one topic, something I enjoyed but could never discuss without fights breaking out with friends from around the country.  I was anonymous and recently let everyone in that I was running it.

    They didn’t care. They just wanted me to continue my content so I did.

    But it just was a slight scratch of an itch I was having.

    So I joined two groups for Social Media Professionals. I was the guppy in the deep end and some days I have been successful in helping others. Some, not so much.

    I was trying, I had gotten to the edge of my map and took the first step to a new map.

    Now choosing a new destination was difficult for me, because this map looked like gobbilty gook. Nothing was labelled and I could just as easy get lost in this new map as the old one.

    But I , with the encouragement of my wife, forged ahead. I’m looking for the next challenge, goal and expectation.

    I finally realized that I have a destination in mind.

    Something I should have done long before. But that fear of change got to me.

    But I have no fear now.  I talk to people who have written major books on Social Media weekly and have yet to be uninvited to their playground. I just move around exploring the world that I have now stepped my foot in.

    I’m 43 , and I’m a man, but sometimes asking someone for a map and directions, would have been good for me 10 years ago. But I wouldn’t have known what to do with a map, let alone a new map.

    I’ve chosen a destination and a path to get there. The road won’t be paved and I have high goals and expectations.

    But once I reach my destination, I’ll turn to my companion and love of my life and say, “I think I’m going to take this road.”

    She’ll be by my side, kicking my backside as we wind down the road.

    As you reach the end of your map, path, destination, you may find yourself lost, like I was. You might need an encouraging word, someone to help you along your way to your next destination.

    If you need a kick in the ass… call me.

    If you need an encouraging word… call me.

    If you need my phone number… e-mail me.

    I believe that without the encouragement of people that I truly love, I would still be driving on the road, filling up with gas when I need it, never arriving at my destination.

    How can I help you arrive at your destination?

  • Why I hate valentines day and I miss my brother.

    This is my strength. This is my soul. This was my brother.

    Tonight as I tossed and turned in my sleep I remember why I wished Joanna was here tonight. I can never sleep the night before your birthday. I always remember how you once told me, “Stop letting the fuckers get you down.” I’ve shed a majority of the weak links in my life. You told me that you were proud of me because I went to St. Louis to play in that poker tournament. Even though I was disappointed even though I final tabled it, you were proud of me for nutting up and just going. You kept me honest, and was fair to me. Even though I think your good heart was taken advantage of, you still loved those who betrayed you. That’s why you will always have a place in my heart and that’s why I still give my heart to those who need it.

    Though you are no longer on this earth, I feel you touch my heart and soul each day. I am here for a higher purpose and I hope you will guide me to it. It’s been six years. And it hasn’t been an easy six.

    Joanna asks me about stories about us and I bring up the days where we both cried and we were both strong. We’d play golf in a dust storm just so we could spend time together. Many people have asked me why I have the tile in my bathroom & kitchen and if I would change it. I told them to fuck off and I mean it. Those were the last things we did together. Though I watched as you worked using the skills that you had learned. Then you came up to the radio station to watch me work. We were both in awe of each other. I remember when you got up on the desk to sign the ceiling tile surrounded by radio talent who had signed before. You didn’t understand the pride the ratings meant to me, but you wanted to leave your mark. You found a blank tile and signed it :

    I Love You Brother – Patman

    I still have that ceiling tile in my office and it will go home with me when I leave. Not because I need the ceiling tile but because it is a link to you.

    I’ve been strong when I once was weak. I’ve cried when once I hid my feelings. Nothing ever changes but yet it did. I don’t mourn your death, I don’t mourn your loss. I mourn not hearing your voice. I mourn not playing golf with you. I mourn talking poker and drinking Irish Whisky with you. I mourn a lot of things. But I see stars shining and I know you are there.

    There are days where I wish I could be next to you, telling stories and calling bullshit on you as you have done so for me. But I guess I have more work on this earth.

    Today would have been your 39th birthday and I would have given you shit all day. I can still hear you say “I can still take you old man.”

    I miss you Patrick.  Happy Birthday Brother!

    Love,

    Your Big Brother,

    Sean